After a few years in my career as a physical therapist, I started to feel disconnected, unsupported, and frustrated at work. I initially thought my frustrations were due to a lack of some skills on my part. As a result I started looking for ways to improve my skills as a physical therapist through continuing education courses. A few years went by, it didn’t matter what new skills I had learned, I was still frustrated at work. It was then I realized my frustrations were connected to the processes and policies of my employer and beliefs of the healthcare industry. So, I changed my focus, and spent a fews years working on process improvements, with my employer. Yet, I still found myself feeling disconnected, unsupported and frustrated by many different aspects of my career. Worse yet, I started to realize these feelings about work were starting to affect my family life. I was losing myself.
One night after work, I remember this night so well, I had rushed home to my husband and our two children. I can still picture it. The kids were playing games on the floor with their father, my husband. They were having so much fun, laughing and playing. Both my children were so happy to see me, they ran to me with hugs. My daughter, my oldest, told me I had missed dinner and their game. “It is now time to get ready for bed mommy.” She told me. I was exhausted and I felt guilty for, once again, missing dinner.
I was at the end of my rope.
At that moment I had so many feelings. I was exhausted, frustrated with work issues that seemed to be getting worse instead of better. I felt so guilty for not being able to spend time with my family. I was sacrificing time with my family to care for my patient’s and to complete the paperwork connected to their care.
As the kids settled into their bedtime show. I gave them kisses on their heads and went upstairs to change. Instead of changing I sat down on the edge of my bed, and just started crying and crying hard. I had everything I wanted; a career that I had worked hard to achieve, a loving husband, two healthy and happy children, yet I was miserable. Miserable! As I sat on my bed, I could hear my children downstairs laughing as their father worked on settling them down for the night.
There I was sitting on the edge of my bed still in my work clothes crying. I was wondering how things have gotten so out of control. I was exhausted, frustrated, guilty, angry, disconnected, unsupported and lost. I couldn’t be there for my family, my patients or myself. This was not the life I had envisioned when I started graduate school to become a physical therapist!
After some time passed, I came to a realization. Through my tears I said to myself, Life is not supposed to be this way. My dream of a family and career did not include being unhappy and miserable. At that moment, I refused to believe I was put on this earth to be miserable. It was then red eyed, with tears streaming down my face, that I made the commitment to change. To figure out how to live my life filled with happiness, joy, passion, and peace. I wanted to learn a way to manage stress effectively and kick the guilt I was feeling.
It probably doesn’t surprise you to read that I did change my life!
The life I had envisioned and wanted I was now living everyday! It took making one small change at a time, which over time, with dedication to my vision, research, classes, along with the support of my coaches, mentors, therapist, and family to come true! A life filled with happiness, joy, passion, peace, effective stress management skills and a lot less guilt. I had created my optimal life!
I have come a long way from the night crying alone in my bedroom. I continue to stay dedicated to my vision to create my own optimal life, still today.
I have been so successful at this, that I thought, if I can overcome my burnout, so can others! Sounds corny right? Well, it is true! I have created my signature program to support individuals like you, ready to beat burnout and ready for a change. Ready to enjoy life, rather than letting life beat you down.
I want to continue to be authentic. This is a great time to share, my life is not perfect nor am I. Yet, I now have the tools, knowledge, skills, dedication and support to manage what life throws at me. And now I am able to enjoy many family dinners and many other events with my family!
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